Sunday, May 5, 2013

WIWS....and anxiety and peace

Today was a (mostly) excellent Mass day.  Elsa got an A for behavior, as she ended up nursing and sleeping for the 2nd half of Mass, only waking up when I had to unlatch her to go up for Communion.   
The other kids are always very well behaved, so I don't grade them. 
The priest gave an excellent homily on anxiety and peace and not giving into worries and fears.  It was exactly what *I* needed to hear, because this is me:

Today's current worry isn't about our job search and lack of job, or moving or Ben taking the bar.  Oh no..nothing like that.  Today's thing that is worrying me is that I have a pain on my hand, right over the bone, and there may or may not be a lump/bump.   So, instead of thinking of the most normal and reasonable explanation, like oh..I hurt it or somehow slightly injured it while fixing John's scooter and wrenching it around,  in my mind it is surely bone cancer, and I will have to wean Elsa, and then I will end up dying in 6 months anyway, and Ben will end up sleeping with Elsa, because she refuses to sleep alone and he will accidentally roll over on her and smother her and end up in jail and my other kids will end up in foster care where they will be abused and turn into delinquents.

Pretty impressive amount of worrying, huh??  Typing it all out, I can really see how ridiculous it all is.  So, I really needed to hear the homily today.

 This is what I wore to hear a much needed homily this Sunday.

Notice the classic looking off to the side, model pose.   And, looking at this picture, I think I need to wear longer skirts to cover up my not-so-shapely knees.  We actually don't have any full-length mirrors, so I never actually know what I look like from the thighs down.  That's probably a good thing.

Shirt: Walmart..the pink sweater thing is attached/ part of the shirt.  It's a one-piece deal
Skirt: thrifted from a long time ago
Shoes: give to me by a lovely neighbor 2 years ago
glasses: same as always, from zenni

Emily from Fine Linen and Purple GOT MARRIED this weekend, so WIWS, is being hosted by Mandi at Messy Wife, Blessed Life...go check it out

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  1. Oh my gosh, I love hearing your worries! It makes me feel so normal, because I too, go through crazy mental gymnastics of horror about the slightest thing. (also I think Pam Stenzel has scarred me for life - after hearing her talk, I was convinced I had an STD for like a month, and my husband kept saying "unless there's something you need to tell me, WE ARE OKAY.")

    I'm sure it isn't bone cancer. But don't worry, if it is, I will totally adopt your kids out of foster care. It's what friends are for!! ;)

    1. I'm holding you to that...if you don't I'll come back and haunt you. :)

  2. WOW! You are the worry QUEEN! That was impressive train of thought. I hope that you have taken a few deep breaths since then and realized there is probably a good least i hope so. It is my prayer for you today that you figure out what happened and you will not be dying anytime soon.

    As for the very cute outfit you're wearing - two of my favorite colors - fuchsia and black. Love it! Rock on sista friend!

  3. I think your knees look fine! Cute outfit!
    I get your train of thought, although I am sure you do not have bone cancer. On days when my anxiety is high, I worrying about crazy, made up stuff! You are not alone.

  4. Oh man, I can relate to your anxiety girl there. But you look pretty! And your knees are A-ok.

  5. I have those same insane worries! I start thinking things like, "Well, if I died in a car accident we could probably have friends give donor milk so that the twins don't need formula but if they need formula we can probably make it until 6 months at which point their guts should be closed and we won't have to worry about those issues but then who will watch the kids during the day maybe my sister can move in and take care of them..." etc. etc!

    Anyway, I totally didn't notice your knees, and I think you look great!

  6. Great pose , great stream of conscious

  7. I like the shirt with the attached bit! Cute. I'm not much of a worrier, but every once in a while, I start along one of those crazy trains of thought, they're terrible and immobilizing. Glad you got some good advice to that effect today!

  8. You look adorable, knees or no. I also am anxiety girl many a day of the week. And I've googled my way into many a terminal diagnosis. It's a motherly 'talent,' isn't it?

  9. You are so skinny! And cute. And funny. Go you!

  10. Funny how when God needs us to hear something, those words usually turn up in a homily!! :)
    Cute outfit! Love the black and pink! And for the record, I think you have great looking knees...not to be weird or anything, just saying! :)

  11. I can totally relate to the worry. I love when the homily hits home, though I really dislike being challenged... You should use the "anxiety girl" pose next week!


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