Did you ever play the "Would You Rather" game?
You know...where you ask would you rather have x thing or y thing happen.
We used to play it with my cousins.
Some of the questions were normal enough?
Would you rather be super tall or super short?
Would you rather be super good at art or at school?
Would you rather have a horse or a swimming pool?
But some of the questions were rather tragic.
Would you rather be blind or deaf?
Would you rather you husband died or your child?
Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
It's a pretty terrible game because life doesn't work that way but it's tempting to think that it does. It's tempting to think that because we are going through X terrible thing that Y terrible thing can't also happen. Or it's tempting to think that once we are no longer suffering from X than suddenly we will suffer from Y.
Right now we are dealing with unemployment and financial worries and uncertainty about the future. And, it is HARD, HARD, HARD.
But, everywhere I turn, I see friends suffering from various health-related issues. Both children and adults diagnosed with life-long chronic diseases, severe allergies, behavior issues, mental illness, unexplained illness, cancer, hormonal issues, extreme fatigue, chronic pain, hospitalizations, needed surgeries, asthma. The list goes on and on. It seems as though almost every family has SOMETHING going on health-wise.
And. so far we don't. So far, we have been fortunate to only have to deal with minor, acute illness or the occasional accident/broken bone thrown in there just to remind us why we do need health insurance. But nothing serious and nothing chronic..so far.
And that scares me. Because I have this irrational fear that once we are no longer suffering from unemployment or financial issues that a health crisis will descent upon us like vultures on a decaying carcass. I know it's irrational...because life doesn't work that way.
But that's the way my mind works. I blame it on Would You Rather games as a child. Suffering from X doesn't protect us from Y and suffering from Y doesn't guarantee that we won't also suffer from X, Z and Q.
Suffering is a strange thing and it's hard not to compare our trials to someone else's trials. Some people seem to have lots of suffering and others not so much. And what one person finds a major trial, another person might find to be nothing more than a minor inconvenience.
I will admit that I have this tendency to get irrationally annoyed at moms who complain about things like their husband working late or they have to do bedtime by themselves or that their kids wake up too much. I forget that their trials are a real trial to them and that I've never walked in their shoes so I don't know what it's like. Everyone has their difficulties and their sufferings and fortunately we don't get to choose.
Right now, I'm just trying to get through what we are dealing with right now and not worry about what might happen and not compare what I'm going through to what others are going through. Because everyone is going through something and we all just need to support each other as best as possible and not worry about whose suffering is worse or harder or more terrible.